User talk:Tfo/Gaycon5
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HI, please feel free to comment on my talk page.
[edit] So, about that dramawhore...
Check out her talk page. She goes by the names "Violet" and "Destiny". It's very funny.
[edit] Hai There!
Thanks for the Seal of Approval. And keep up the good work with helping preserve the Lulz here at ED! :)--Wierdokid182 21:51, 22 June 2007 (CDT)
- About my Username, You bring up a good point Sir. I'd explain myself further, but it would defile the very name of this website, being that it wouldn't be so lulzy. --Wierdokid182 16:56, 19 July 2007 (CDT)
- Ohhhh, I envy you! I love John Waters, what a cool guy. I'm glad someone likes the photo, lol. Did you read Shock Value? Really good book. I wanna see Peaches too, I love Drag Queens. John and Peaches ought to team up--Wierdokid182 16:59, 19 July 2007 (CDT)
- Man, SF looks like a hell of a good time from here. I live near NYC, but I don't have time to chill. As for those meetings, the same can be said for college, lol. I don't even have time to watch my b films anymore, I only have time to buy more. --Wierdokid182 17:22, 19 July 2007 (CDT)
- I spotted that you reverted Theburk's wikiwork on my page. That was sweet of you. Thank you. For a minute I thought I lost my skin :)--Wierdokid182 07:48, 24 July 2007 (CDT)
- Hey, um, I just wanted to warn you about some users who might come to vandalize the Soapbox article on here. I spotted their thread on IMDb right now. Speaking of which, I also have an edit over for the article, let me know if you are interesting, and if you approve of it I'll publish--Wierdokid182 01:52, 8 August 2007 (CDT)
[edit] BDSM Edits
Yeah - I got an account ages ago, but never edited until now. BDSM seemed a logical place to start, given that I'm a Domme. I raep furry children. Further editings shall be had! MiraFirefly 18:16, 18 June 2007 (CDT)
[edit] Hai2uTfo!
It's good to see you back in action. I think I may have a loaner lappy this w/end so I should be back in full effect on ED and #ed myself. In the meantime I'm off to DINE IN HELL for the third time. Fukken IMAX, bruv, innit!!!1 <3
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Abu Hurairah al Mudkips 20:22, 16 March 2007 (UTC)
- Awesome! YES I AM RETURNED. ENJOY YOUR DINNER, REMIND ME AGAIN WHERE YOU ARE DINING. KEKEKETalk to me Listen to me. 20:33, 16 March 2007 (UTC)
--- IN HEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!
[edit] y helo thar
I have some... std-related filez that may interest you tell me what email to send them to for great fappage zombie_bomb 04:49, 27 March 2007 (UTC)
- COX GET zombie_bomb 04:04, 29 March 2007 (UTC)
[edit] Violet Blue
- Her column made me lol so much I had to edit the article, "When A Man Hates A Woman
The ugly side of sex and the Web" LOL. It almost sounds like she's specifically talking about ED. --Entropy 08:29, 1 April 2007 (UTC)
- She is a delusional bitch. And yeah, I was like ZOMG GIRL YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MEAN THINGS CAN BE. KEKEKETalk to me Listen to me. 17:27, 1 April 2007 (UTC)
- Present day feminists make me lol and she really highlights this retardation, and right on the internets for all of us to see. --Entropy 19:42, 1 April 2007 (UTC)
- She is a delusional bitch. And yeah, I was like ZOMG GIRL YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MEAN THINGS CAN BE. KEKEKETalk to me Listen to me. 17:27, 1 April 2007 (UTC)
[edit] SWA
Nothing really connecting it to ol, but I thought it would be lulzy. Feel free to baleet, or something if you wish.Anonymous 89 16:50, 3 April 2007 (UTC)
[edit] I LOLLED!
Here...hold onto it for me. Hello, Tfo/Gaycon5
THIS IS SERIOUS; READ IT.
Congratulations on joining ED! You probably fit into one of these categories:
- 1. New User
- Before making your first article look over ED:101. Try checking out random articles and fixing typos, grammar and/or bullshit where you find them before trying to make a new page. To start with, make multiple small edits to different articles until you have the hang of it. If you don't, it is unlikely that your article will survive for more than sixty seconds and you risk being molested by ED Sysops.
- If you don't know anything about wiki formatting and code, please read ED:BASIC and the Style Guide. Take your time and start slowly.
- 2. Mediawiki Migrant If you're an experienced wiki user (probably from a Wikipedia offshoot) who knows how to operate, please read ED:101 for offical policy and ED:MIGRANT for tips on assimilation and basic rules.
Whichever you are, to successfully contribute to ED, please take some time to look around, note why other people get banned and don't act like they did.
Communication with other users prevents misunderstandings and can be done through talk pages, TJC and the mailing list.
If you plan on sticking around, feel free to make your mark on the ED:Map and join the ED Facebook, the ED Myspace and the ED Bebo.
--Fish & Mudkips 18:40, 4 April 2007 (UTC)
- YAYAY welcomes. I would vandalize you but it takes so much EFFORT on this thing. KEKEKETalk to me Listen to me. 19:51, 4 April 2007 (UTC)
[edit] Re: kekeke
Thanks for that sir! -Cirrus 08:07, 6 April 2007 (UTC)
[edit] Front Page'd
Ah, I see conceptart back on the front page. However recently an EDiot made a picture of pure WIN that should be in the frontpage header ( April 6th, April 7th ) instead of the snapesnogger art I originally linked:
However since the pages are edit protected I cannot do that right thurr. Halp plz?
Also I think after suburbs I have run out of Ideas for new articles. Any suggestions? Otherwise I think I'm gonna go around and mark some pointless pages with balleetplz. --JawsomeRAWR BITCHES!! 17:56, 6 April 2007 (UTC)
[edit] Oh God, I can see forever
That fanfic thing is disturbing as all Hell! I'll need to upload some of the ones I found now!
[edit] loldongs
Thanks negroid! Now i just need to get my lazy ass to write moar articles.
- --Drunkenlazybastard 00:36, 7 April 2007 (UTC)Drunkenlazybastard
[edit] Hey :)
Please protect User:Anger2headshot and User_talk:Anger2headshot... they should rd to User:A2h and User_talk:A2h respectively. Thanks! (you are Tfo|Cooking|Out|Etc on IRC right?) A2h 06:06, 8 April 2007 (UTC)
[edit] I heard you might liek this
What I'm about to tell you will probably get me into a whole lot of trouble. But I really don't have anyone to talk to about this, so I'm going to share it with you. Now ever since I was little I have loved sports. I use to eat, sleep and breath sports morning, noon and night. When I started in elementary school we didn't have school sport teams, but I always played on little league teams. And I always won the MVP trophies regardless of which sport I was playing. Everyone knew I was destined to be the all American sports god that I am today. I lettered in 5 different sports in high school, football of course, baseball, basketball, wrestling, hockey and I'm sure I would have gotten a 6th if weight lifting were a competition sport at my school. Currently I'm playing professional football for a super bowl winning team. I'm sure you can appreciate that I won't name any names in this account. Let's just say I've had all the legal problems one man should have to deal with and I don't need any more. Anyway last week I ran into an old friend from high school and I haven't really been the same since. He brought back all the doubts and uncertainty that plagued me through out my high school career. His name is Jay and this is the story of how we fell in
When I moved from junior high to high school I thought I was hot shit. I was full of myself and everyone knew it. I'm sure most of you are thinking that jocks are always so full of themselves. And that we flaunt our good bodies around like currency, and for some this is true, but what most non sport playing people don't know is that practically from birth we are told that we are the best, that in order to win we must be better than everyone else. To have the winning attitude you must think this at all times. If you ever doubt yourself on the field you lose. So this is the mind set that most jocks have, which is generally fostered by coaches and parents alike.
So that first day of high school was a total breeze for me. Before I even stepped in the door all the right people knew to look out for me. Being the heir apparent to the quarter back throne I was given the red carpet treatment all the way. Hand picked teachers who would give me A's no matter what, and I was even introduced to the younger sister of the head cheerleader before lunch. So I think you can understand why my ego was a little over inflated.
Even though I had the world by the balls I still felt lonely inside. Aw boo hoo poor little jock god your probably thinking right about now. But you really can't know what its like unless you went through it. To be surrounded by a crowd of people who only see you as the athlete, people who are only interested in you because you can play some sport. I doubt you will believe me, but it can get quite lonely in the spot light, even though on the outside it looks like you've got it made, on the inside it can be extremely harsh.
Now of course being the jock god one cant forget the girls, all jocks know it is their god given American right to get laid anytime they want it, and to get laid by very very pretty girls at that. So having a willing and available girl should have made me one very satisfied boy right? Well it didn't, it only made me worried that my own secrets would be found out. The pressures to perform on and off the field can exact a terrible price for those who aren't capable of dealing with the weight of it all. Added to this was the constant fear that people would finally know I'm gay.
So on that first day of school while my life was being planned out for me, by all the powers that be, it surprised me to meet a boy who took my breath away. Had I known the influence he would hold over me I might have walked away that day I saw him getting his ass kicked in the halls out side the gym doors. But something made me intervene.
"Hey what the fuck you doing?" I yelled
Two guys looked up at me as I walked faster towards them. Shoving one from atop a small bleeding boy, the other guy gave me a look of utter confusion.
"Dude what are you doing?
"I'm stopping you from killing this little kid dumbass." I said
But this fag gets his ass beat every day by us after gym." The dirty blond guy told me.
"Yea we have to cause he keeps staring at us in the showers."
"Look I don't care what this kid did to you .If I ever hear that you laid a finger on him again your dead." I yelled trembling with rage.
"Oh yea and you think the two of us can't take you out?" the dirty blond piped up.
"Well since you brought it up no I don't think you could. But even if you managed to I wouldn't advise it since you'd have the coach and the rest of the football team to deal with, understand?" I said shooting them both an evil grin.
"Yea well fuck you buddy lets go Ray." The dirty blond replied. As I watched them both walk away grumbling I couldn't help but give a small laugh. Being a chosen one does have its advantages. Looking back around I noticed the small boy still lying on the floor all curled up in a ball. Kneeling down I placed my hand gently on his back and began to speak to him.
"Hey dude you alright?" I asked. Slowly he raised his head and looked around. I really don't think he was expecting a jock to rescue him. But I know I was never expecting to fall into those baby blues that he looked at me with. By the time I managed to hear what he was saying I knew I had met the love of my life.
"Hey thanks for saving me from Billy and Ray."
"No problem little man" I said breathlessly. "I don't know why they have such a hardon for kicking your ass but I don't think you're going to have to worry about it much longer."
"My name is Jay" he said extending his hand. Smiling at me with his crooked grin I couldn't help but think he was sexy even with his split lip.
"I'm John nice to meet you Jay." Staring into his eyes, I was mesmerized; it was like looking into the ocean.
"Well I better get to class before I get a tardy see you around, and thanks again for saving me." And just like that Jay had wormed his way into my heart where he was to stay for a long long time.
The rest of the day was nothing but a blur. I never saw Jay in any of the classes I had, but I did keep my eye out for him in between periods. It was really hard for me to keep my attention focused on anything but the memory of his eyes, and the way his face seemed to come alive with his infectious smile. Man I knew I was in trouble, I mean I have always looked at guys, especially the cute ones but never has a guy affected me like this. I couldn't get Jay off my mind. It wasn't until school was out that I saw Jay again. He seemed to be rushing home, almost running and then I noticed that the guys from this morning Billy and Ray were following close on his heels. As soon as I processed this sight my mind filled with rage, I had warned them to stay away but it looked like they were the hard headed type. Scanning the crowd of people I quickly spotted a few of the guys from the football team. Rushing over I asked two of the linemen to come with me and then I took off in the direction that Jay was moving in. About a block and a half from school I came upon Billy and Ray kicking Jay's ass next to a dry cleaning store. They where so engrossed in putting a beat down on Jay that I was able to run right up to them without them being aware. Immediately I grabbed Billy and threw his sorry ass to the ground. Before Ray knew what hit him the two linemen had dragged him back towards the alley along side of the dry cleaners. I honestly didn't have control of myself; blinded with rage I began to beat Billy. Landing solid blows to his head and chest it wasn't until I heard Jay yell my name that the fog cleared and I realized what I was doing.
"John stop your going to kill him!" Jay yelled.
Looking around I noticed that Jeff and Jason, the two linemen, had Ray cornered and where pretty much slapping him around. Staring down at Billy I suddenly went cold with fear, I had never lost control like that before.
"If you ever come near Jay again" I screamed, "I'll kill you do you understand me punk?"
My body shook with rage and nervous energy. I didn't even wait for Billy's reply; I scooped Jay into my arms and walked him back the few blocks to student parking.
"I'm going to give you a ride home ok?" I said to Jay
"Thank you John." Jay whispered to me.
"Listen why don't you just start riding with me from now on ok? That way I can keep an eye on you and make sure no one messes with you again." I heard myself saying these words and I didn't even know this kid. I had basically taken over after that first incident and wouldn't take no for an answer.
Jay gave me a sideways glance and a little smile, which totally melted my heart. Dam this guy is cute, his blond hair is shaggy just the way I like and falls into his eyes. And those blue eyes I could go on forever about the shade and depth of his eyes. His little body was just so sexy, the way it was all proportional right down to his hot little ass. I swear here I was throwing bone not five minutes after nearly killing some guy, weird huh? I think Jay knew right away that I liked him. At least he had to know I was hot for his bod, as we use to say. The whole drive to his house neither one of us spoke a word other than a few short directions. The rest of the time I was staring at him out of the corner of my eye. Now I know being sixteen means your pretty much horny 24/7, and I was, but somehow every time I was around Jay I went into hyper horny mode. I noticed the way his tongue kept darting out to touch his split upper lip. Man just the sight of his small pink tongue had my dick leaking like a fountain. After what seemed like only a few moments I pulled up to the house that Jay indicated was his.
"Listen I will be here at 7:30 tomorrow morning ok." I said turning to Jay.
"Ok but I was just wondering something John."
"What's that little man?" I asked.
"Why are you being so nice to me? I mean you don't even know me and you've saved me twice now, why?"
I was nervous; he kept looking straight into my eyes awaiting an answer. I sat there for a few moments and thought about how much I could tell him.
"Well let's just say I hate to see anyone get picked on no matter what the reason." I said.
"Oh, is that the only reason? He asked. I don't know why I couldn't tell him how I felt at that moment. I mean my whole life I have been the kind of direct straight forward guy that knows what he wants and goes for it. Here he was giving me the perfect opportunity to let him know why I was interested in keeping him safe. And I just couldn't bring myself to tell him.
"Hey it's not right the way the two of them gang up on you Jay, even if you weren't a small guy it still wouldn't be right."
"Ok well I just want you to know that I'm very grateful that you did stick up for me. If there's ever anything I can do for you let me know ok." Jay said with a light blush creeping into his cheeks
He began to get out of my car and walk towards his door. I waited for him to go inside just to be sure. And when he opened the door he looked back and gave me the most beautiful smile I had ever seen. And with that he closed the door.
Sorry it has taken me this long to get you the next installment, but life has a funny way of getting in the way when you least expect it, I hope the wait was worth it. Also I want to thank all of you who have been kind enough to send me an e-mail, your words of encouragement have meant a lot to me. I just wanted to remind you that while there will be sex involved in this story it isn't all about the big O, so if that's what your waiting for then you might want to check out some of the other great stories that Nifty has to offer. On the other hand if you're interested in relationships, especially ones between guys that aren't sure of themselves or love, like anyone ever is, then this is the story for you. Feel free to contact me at writerscramp71@yahoo.com.
I've never had a problem making friends; in fact I have quite a few close friends and a ton of acquaintances. Though I couldn't say that I ever had a true best friend, I was never without someone to hang out with or mess around when I wanted to (no not like that perverts). But I never had to work at it with Jay, it seemed to come so naturally and man that felt great. There was an unspoken agreement between us that allowed us to be ourselves. Not once did he put me on the spot to explain myself to him. There weren't any uncomfortable pauses when we where together, nor did he ever bring up any questions of sexuality. We slipped into the most comfortable friendship I have ever had to this day. After that Jay and I were inseparable, and I wouldn't let him out of my sight except during classes.
I arrived at his house a few minutes before 7:30, parked my car and got out to knock on his door. As I was walking up to his porch he opened the door and looked completely surprised. I stood there and took in the sight of him. I still couldn't believe how he made me feel every time I stared at him. His hair was still wet from his shower, and I could see a little bit of toothpaste in the corner of his mouth.
"I didn't really expect you to show up." He said looking at me sheepishly.
"Well I don't know what your other friends are like but I assure you I'm a man of my word, I could never lie to you." I said, and I meant it. I knew deep in my heart I could never do anything to hurt him physically or mentally.
I couldn't resist and took a step forward; I raised my hand and wiped the toothpaste from his mouth. The smell of his freshly washed body made me dizzy. His eyes showed shock at first but quickly that look was replaced by one of love, awe? I really couldn't decide what he was thinking; a grin that could stop traffic was my reward. We walked to my car and for some reason I opened the door for him while he sat down, it just occurred naturally I didn't think about it.
"So listen at lunch I want you to sit with me ok, and after school I have practice so you'll have to wait until I'm done." I told Jay as we drove towards school.
"What?" Jay replied with concern in his voice. "I don't think your friends will want me to sit with you at lunch."
"Well you let me worry about them, but trust me they wont care and if they do then I will have to change their minds." I said giving him a sly grin.
"Ok I guess."
"Hey don't sweat it little man, if I say you're sitting there that's the way it is." I said with determination.
With that out of the way we were off and again all the way to school I couldn't keep my eyes from looking at Jay's body. I had already gotten off once this morning but already I was getting hard just being close to Jay. Before I even noticed we had pulled into the school parking lot and I was walking Jay inside.
Walking down the halls to Jay's locker I spotted Billy and Ray, both looked like they had been through a few rounds with a bus and had come out on the losing end. I flashed them a big smile as we passed them, they just glared at us, and I noticed Jay kept his head down until we got to his locker.
"Hey Jay don't worry" I said "I'm not going to let those guys hurt you anymore ok."
"Ok" he kind of mumbled.
"Don't you believe me?" I asked him.
"It's not that I don't believe you, its just.... I guess I am so use to guys like them." He said.
"What do you mean, guys like them?"
"Well they aren't the first bullies to beat me up, in junior high everyone use to pick on me, I guess after so many years of getting beaten I don't expect it to just change over night." He said as his eyes watered up.
"Look Jay I don't know what you've gone through, but I can say without a doubt that from now on if anyone messes with you they mess with me." I said to him as I gently lifted his chin to look him in the eyes. "I'm not going to let anyone hurt you again, that's a promise."
His eyes showed so much expectation at that moment, I could see all the years of pain and misery he had gone through, but beyond that I also saw hope and a vulnerability that was oddly attracting me to him even more. In that second of connection that we had in the hall something was cemented in our relationship, a kind of unbreakable bond that only true love can create.
Suddenly the shrill sound of the warning bell rang, it broke our connection and Jay realized he was going to be late for homeroom.
"Oh my god I've got to hurry." He said
"Do you have everything?" I asked him.
"Yes I do, I guess I will see you at lunch then." Jay said as he began to walk towards his class. I followed him for a few steps before he turned around.
"What are you doing your going to be late for homeroom and you haven't even stopped at your locker yet." Jay said
Laughing I replied "Dude don't sweat it I wont get in trouble, besides I promised you I wouldn't let anything happen again remember?"
Smiling Jay turned and began to run, shouting back "Yea well you might not get in trouble but I will if I'm late!"
Jay made the last bell with a few seconds to spare; I walked towards my locker to get my first period books. I should at least keep up the appearance that I work hard I thought. Opening my locker I noticed a strange smell coming from inside. An over powering stench of piss and musk wafted out of my locker as I stood there. My anger was beginning to boil; suddenly I heard footsteps running away from the area and laughter echoing down the hall. I knew who was probably responsible and this only made me angrier. My mind was plotting revenge when the assistant dean walked around the corner.
"Mr. Matthews why aren't you in class?" Mr. Arnold asked.
"Well sir I was running late and when I opened my locker I found someone had poured what I think is doe urine all inside my locker. It has soaked into all my books and I was just about to go to the office to let someone know when you walked up." I said in my best wounded pride response.
"Hmm well did you see anyone near your locker before class?
"No sir I didn't, I was helping a friend to class which is why I was running late, but I did hear someone running down the hall after I opened it." I replied.
"Well here you take this" he said reaching for a pad of paper to write a note, "This will keep you out of trouble with your teachers and I will get a janitor to clean this mess up and have you assigned to a new locker with new text books before lunch ok." He stated with a smile. Like I've said before being a chosen one does have its advantages.
I left first period early so I would be at Jay's class before the bell rang. I wasn't going to take any chances with his safety especially after the locker incident. I knew Billy and Ray would be looking for any opening to hurt either one of us. From then on I walked Jay to each of his classes and met him before he got out of them. I talked to my teachers and explained to them why I would be late and leave early, while it really didn't matter as long as I kept winning on the field, I still didn't want to piss anyone off.
Lunch was a little trickier than I thought it would be, because Jay's lunch started 15 minutes later than mine I had to wait before I could eat with him. Sitting at the table my friends noticed that something wasn't quite right, and began to give me the third degree.
"Dude what's your problem you look like your about to have a stroke? Sammy asked me.
"Nothing" I replied "I'm waiting on someone." Even though I knew it wouldn't be a big deal to have Jay sit with me I was suddenly afraid that I couldn't pull this off. It wasn't like my friends were snobs, far from it, it's just that I knew I would have a hard time not staring at Jay's body and I wondered how long it would take them to figure it out.
"Who is she?" Rick asked with a lecherous grin.
"It's not a girl" I murmured "just a new friend."
"Well dam dude you need to relax" said Ben "your starting to make me nervous just watching you." I shot him a look of silent anger and continued to watch the door; it was almost time for him to be here. I didn't think he would have any problems getting to the cafeteria seeing as he would be coming with most of his class. Right about the time I was going to go and check on what was keeping him he entered the room and nothing else mattered. The din of the lunch crowd disappeared and I only had eyes for Jay. I got up from my table and met him in line.
"Hey what would you like for lunch?" I said grabbing for my wallet.
"You don't have to buy me lunch John I have money." He replied
"Well what if I want too?" I said looking into those baby blues and feeling like anything was possible with him by my side.
"You can do what ever you want to John." Jay whispered to me as a blush crept into his cheeks.
Instantly my dick went stone hard as I couldn't help but look him up and down imagining what exactly he would let me do. After we had gotten our trays we walked back to the table where my friends were sitting.
"Hey guys this is Jay" I said with a huge grin plastered to my face.
"Jay this is Ben, Rick and Sammy, these guys make up half of the best offensive line ever." I said as I introduced my friends to Jay, a little flattery never hurt.
Jay sat down next to me and began to quickly eat his lunch. I could tell he was extremely nervous; it wasn't until Sammy asked him a question that Jay's head came up from his tray.
"So Jay how did you guys meet up?"
"Well um...I was getting my ass kicked by these two guys and John jumped in and saved my skin." Jay replied with a look of embarrassment on his face.
"Who was given you shit?" Ben asked.
"Um these guys Billy and Ray they are in my gym class, they've had it out for me since junior high."
"Well not anymore." I said with a laugh, "After the beat down me, Jeff, and Jason put on them I doubt they mess with you again."
The table erupted with laughter and we continued to finish lunch. The conversation came easy after the ice was broken, and every time I heard Jay laugh my heart swelled with love, not to mention other areas as well. After about 15 minutes the guys left to go back to class and Jay and I were alone.
"So I was wondering if you weren't doing anything after school... um well I just wanted to know if you wanted to hang out with me after practice." Jay asked in a soft voice.
I could tell he still didn't believe that I would want to be with him, seeing the look of doubt in his eyes made my heart break for him.
"Hell yea" I said "if you want we can hang out at my house, my folks wont be home from work until after 9:00. We could watch some movies or swim what ever you want."
I tried to be cool about it, I didn't want to seem over eager but inside I was doing back flips. For a second I saw surprise come across Jay's eyes but then he smiled and continued to eat. The last 5 minutes of lunch we just sat and stared at each other. I couldn't help but think of what might happen when I had Jay all to myself. We had never really been alone besides driving in the car, and I was a little worried and a lot excited about tonight.
After we cleaned up our mess from lunch I walked Jay back to his class, all the way there I had this over whelming desire to hold Jay's hand. I just wanted to touch him so bad; it scared me to think that he had that much control over me.
Finally after what seemed like an eternity the day was almost over. I was on my way to Jay's class before practice. I had arranged for Jay to stay in the coaches' office during practice. I wouldn't be able to keep an eye on Jay while I ran drills, knowing he was safe would let me concentrate on running plays.
"Hey you ready?" I asked Jay as I met him coming out of his last class.
"Yea um how long do you think practice will last?" said Jay.
"Well usually a regular practice last about 2 hours, unless the coaches are pissed at us for losing a game or making any huge mistakes." I told him.
"So you won't be done until 5:30?"
"Yea but we only have 3 a week during school." I said "Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday usually."
"Oh ok well lets stop at my locker and I will get my books so I can do my homework while you do what ever you do." Jay said with a grin.
"I talked to coach and he said you could stay in his office while we practice, that way nothing will happen and I wont worry about you ok?"
"Um ok where is the coach's office?" Jay asked with some hesitancy.
"It's in the locker room." I said.
A look of terror came over Jay's face and he slowed his pace.
"What's wrong Jay?" I asked.
"Nothing" Jay said.
Walking into the locker room was something that I took for granted. I had spent years changing and showering in front of guys so to me it wasn't a big deal. Even though I would check out guys, I never had a problem keeping things under control if you know what I mean.
Upon entering the locker Jay began to sweat, and the whole time his eyes were down cast. Even though I couldn't see his face he must have had a really bright blush going on judging from the scarlet color of his neck. Looking around there must have been 25 to 30 guys in some state of undress. I showed Jay where my locker was before I took him to the coach's office. The whole time he wouldn't look anyone in the eyes, it was kind of cute, and I couldn't help but notice his jeans were getting tighter.
After I had Jay settled in I changed for practice and headed on to the field. It was going to be one of those days when the coach didn't even give us time to warm up before he had us running laps. It took all I had to keep my offence together as we went through almost every play we had in the book. After we had been run ragged, almost to the point of collapse we were finally done. I couldn't wait to get changed and have Jay all to myself
After I had Jay settled in I changed for practice and headed on to the field. It was going to be one of those days when the coach didn't even give us time to warm up before he had us running laps. It took all I had to keep my offence together as we went through almost every play we had in the book. After we had been run ragged, almost to the point of collapse, we were finally done. I couldn't wait to get changed and have Jay all to myself.
It took everything I had not to just turn and leave when the coach
was giving his little after practice speech. As soon as it was over I ran
to the locker room, with only one thing on my mind, Jay. I was so excited
to be able to spend time with him that I didn't even shower. I changed my
cloths and threw my practice uniform in the locker. Rushing as fast as I
could I grabbed my backpack and went to collect Jay, I hustled to get Jay
out the door before anyone could stop me.
"How did practice go?" Jay asked.
"It was ok, coach was kind of ticked, thought we weren't giving 110% or some shit." I replied.
"So what do you want to do?" asked Jay.
"Well I need to shower when we get home, but after that we can do
what ever you want." I said.
"Yea you do kind of stink." Jay laughed.
God his laughter was such a turn on. I felt this pressure building inside of me; things were rushing along so fast I wasn't even aware I had turned onto my street. Once I pulled into my driveway a great tension began to build inside me. Like a strumming tingle it was growing stronger and I knew it was leading to something that was going to change my life. It was then that I started to form a plan of how I was going to seduce Jay.
"Wow nice house."
"Thanks" I replied "come on and I'll show you around."
I gave Jay a quick tour of my house showing him the usual stuff, I ended it at my bedroom door.
"Wow I like your room pretty cool." Jay said as I opened the door.
"Thanks I'm glad you like it, hey listen I'm going to grab a quick shower." I said. "If you want you can wait in the living room or you can just hang out here its up to you."
I didn't linger for Jay's answer as I headed into my bathroom. I left the door open on purpose because the way my bedroom is set up you can see into the bathroom from the room if you look into my dresser mirror. I wanted to give Jay a show if he was brave enough to stay and watch. Yea I know it's the oldest trick in the book but I was 16 and had never tried to seduce anyone before. Ever since Jay agreed to come over, hell ever since I saw him that first time I definitely wanted to seduce him. I turned on the shower and adjusted the water temp, then began to undress. I never looked back to see if he was watching but somehow I just knew he was. I pushed my shirt over my head and popped off my shoes using my feet. Slowly I unbuttoned my jeans and slid them off, bending over to get them from around my ankles, and my socks. Then I dropped my boxers and kicked them aside, standing there naked I looked into the bathroom mirror and I was shocked at who I saw. I had never seen myself through lustful eyes before. The tension grew stronger and my whole body felt like it was about to burst, hesitating for another second I then jumped into the shower. I won't say it was the fastest shower in my life but it was dam close, it didn't take me more than 5 minutes to get clean from top to bottom. I got out of the shower and began to dry off, paying close attention to my cock and balls. I really wanted to get Jay all worked up so that what I was about to do next would hopefully go smoothly. Even though we had never talked about this thing we had going between us I knew that he wanted it just as much as I did. I also knew he would never make the first move. So without a moment's pause I walked out into my room and began to look for some cloths. Watching out of the corner of my eye I could tell Jay was riveted. I grabbed an old pair of basketball shorts, a tee and pulled them on. Turning around I looked at Jay and saw him blushing worse than I had ever seen him before. I could tell he was really worked up, suddenly a look of fear crossed his face and he stood up from sitting on my bed. It was then I noticed he had a boner, and man did it look huge.
"I...uh...I'm sorry John but I couldn't help seeing you." Jay said
with fear in his voice.
"Did you like watching me Jay?" I asked in a coy manner.
"Well...umm...I"
"Did I make you hard?" I said motioning toward his large bulge. I
wouldn't have believed it if I didn't see it, but Jay started to blush even harder.
Before he had a chance to say anything or run away I moved close to
him and put my arms around his waist. Looking straight into his eyes I tried to calm him with my reassuring look of love as I moved to kiss him. I heard his breath catch when my lips softly touched his and the tension I had been feeling suddenly went out of control. My whole body felt like it was buzzing and it began and ended in my lips. I pressed my body hard against Jay's and felt his rock hard dick rubbing up along side mine. I don't remember how but we ended up on my bed, I was desperate to taste and touch as much of him as I could. I clutched at his shirt and began to pull it over his head. His hands squeezed my ass as my tongue explored every inch of his mouth; the intensity of it all never stopped growing. I felt like I was on the edge of a great abyss, that feeling of excitement and being scared shitless all rolled into one was the only thing in the world at that moment.
The touch of his skin against mine set my nerves on fire, it was all
I could do not to explode right then. After I had his shirt off I began to work on his pants, and in the heat of the moment somehow I had lost my shorts. I finally managed to get Jay's pants off, I was stunned. Now when it came to size I was no slouch, almost 8 and thick thank you, but Jay had what was the biggest dick I have ever seen. If it was an inch it was 10, and so thick I couldn't get my fingers to touch around it. I didn't know what to say, here was this perfectly proportioned little guy with this massive cock, it was almost comical. And I would have laughed if I didn't have this overwhelming desire to taste it, to feel it slid into my mouth.
Just as I was about to fulfill that desire I heard the front door
slam shut. My mother's voice called out my name; just like that my hopes were dashed. Jay and I scrambled to get dressed; the look of fright on Jay's face would have been funny if I wasn't so pissed about not being able to go as far as I wanted to with him.
"Come on lets go down before she comes up to look for me." I said
with disappointment showing in my voice.
"Man I'm so freaked out right now." Jay croaked.
"Don't be, she won't think anything." I said.
"Well it's not just that, I mean everything. I've never done this
kind of thing before." Jay said as his gaze fell to the floor.
"Hey don't feel bad little man, it's my first time too." I said with
a wicked grin.
A look of surprise came over Jay's face as he exclaimed "really?"
"John come and set the table your father is going to be home early
and I want to have a real dinner for once." My mother yelled up the stairs.
"Come on I want to introduce you to my mom." I said
Jay followed me downstairs and into the kitchen, I could tell he was
still freaked out about everything that had happened.
"Mom I want you to meet my friend Jay, Jay this is my mom." I said
with a chuckle.
"Well hello honey it's nice to meet you, my name is Helen, are you
going to be staying for dinner?" My mother asked.
"Um sure, if it's ok with John." Jay said with a questioning look.
Smiling I gave a nod and arched my eyebrows at him. Turning towards
Jay my mother grew very serious looking and said. "I only have one question to ask you."
Nervously Jay replied. "What's that?" "Do you know how to make a
salad?" She asked.
"Yes I can make salad." Jay said with a smile on his face.
The rest of the evening went great, its one of the best memories I
have of spending time with Jay. I could tell he was very comfortable with my family, I had never seen him so relaxed and carefree. My parents were their charming selves as usual. I think it was that night when they began to have suspicions about my sexuality. I'm sure my mom could see the way I looked at Jay and the way he looked at me. Only someone who's deeply in love for the first time would think no one else could see it.
All the way on the drive to his house that night after dinner I held
Jay's hand. Oddly we didn't speak about what had happened in my bedroom before my mom came home. But I can honestly say I was more in love with him than I had ever thought possible. We didn't kiss when I dropped him off; I think we were both afraid of what that might lead to if we did. I certainly didn't want to get caught making out with a boy in my car, and I'm sure Jay didn't either. I have always had to deal with hiding my sexuality, but being in love and not being able to show it is something entirely different altogether. The pressures began to mount and while I had been able to handle all the stresses in my life so far, I was worried whether or not I would be able to deal with it and still achieve what I wanted.
It was after I took Jay home that night that I began to think about
what it would really mean for me to be with Jay. Not just the sexual part, which I was still intent on getting, but thinking about what it would be like to be with him for the rest of my life. That's when it dawned on me that there would be no way I could play professional football and be openly gay. This had been my driving goal since I could remember, I couldn't give up that dream, I had invested too much of myself to abandon it. But I also didn't want to give up Jay; his love had become surprisingly very important to me. Even though I had accepted the fact that I was gay I hadn't really thought how that would fit into my life. I had a choice to make, live openly as a gay person and give up the dreams I had held my entire life, or hide who I was, achieve my goals and hope that would be enough to make me happy. From that point on these two conflicting emotions began to war inside my head and my heart.
As I laid awake in bed that night, I couldn't help but think of all
the possible ways that my relationship with Jay could hurt me. You have to understand that this was the early 90's and gay rights were something that was just beginning to be understood by the nation. But in the sports world things weren't as quick to change. Rampant discrimination and open hatred were the norm. Being openly gay and playing team sports wasn't an option. Even if I could live an open life and not be totally ostracized from my friends, school and family there was still the issue of becoming a professional football player. Finally all these thoughts were just too much and I pushed it out of my mind.
Instead I thought about what Jay and I had done before we were
interrupted by my mom. I remembered the way his body smelled and how soft his skin felt against mine. My heart raced when I thought of the way he made me feel. I was still amazed at the size of his dick. It blew my mind that such a little guy could be hung so well. And I thought about what Jay was doing at that exact moment. Was he playing through his mind the things we had done? Was he hard thinking about my touch, the way I was thinking about his? I couldn't help but jack off thinking what would have happened if we weren't disturbed, and wondering if Jay was doing the same thing. I don't think I had ever cum so hard before in my life. As I started to drift off into sleep I knew one thing for sure, I was going to finish what I had started and soon. Looking back I guess you could say that for someone who had never really had any sexual experiences, beyond mutual masturbation with a few friends when I was 12, or kissing a couple of girls to keep up my image, that Jay and I moved pretty fast. Part of it I'm sure was our raging hormones, but more than that we really had this special connection. It seemed to grow stronger the more time we spent together. No one had ever affected me the way Jay did.
Over the next couple of weeks we became closer than I ever thought possible. Just watching Jay every day made my heart soar. It didn't seem to matter what he was doing, pushing a strand of hair behind his ear, the way he chewed his food, these simple actions fascinated me beyond belief. Seeing my love mirrored in his eyes was something I can never forget. It didn't matter what was going on, the whole world could be coming to an end and one look from Jay would be enough to make me forget any pain or misery.
All through out this time those little nagging doubts about my future kept gnawing away at my happiness. I tried to push these fears out of my mind, but they were persistent little bastards. They knew when to whisper a few words of doubt, never failing to add their two cents about the way things were going. This was something I had never experienced before in my life. I had never questioned who I was and where I was going. It seemed that love didn't bring all the happy ever after that I had been led to believe. I know what you're thinking, why would you actually buy that crap about true love and all that jazz. Well I didn't, at least not until I actually fell in love. It changed me inside, the person I use to be no longer was. I was too young to really know what a relationship was, the give and take, and the honesty. I only had a vague hint then; things hadn't run their full course.
Our first big game was coming up, and I wanted Jay to come and watch me play. Now it's true that jocks like to show off, at least some times. And I did want to impress Jay, which was also something I had never felt before. Wanting to show off for just one person, man I was certainly on a trip with love. The whole week before the game things seemed a little off, my timing and concentration weren't on the money. I felt a pressure building on my shoulders and my mind was heavy with thoughts of me and Jay. We had been spending so much time together and we never really talked about us, this love that we had. I knew if I didn't tell Jay how I felt about him, and soon things were going to get worse.
If you have ever played football you know that even though everyone says the first game doesn't really matter, it does. This would be the first time we would play together as a team, and if we fell apart on the field it would set the tone for the rest of the season, besides the fact that everyone would look to me and ask why if we lost. So you can understand why I was nervous about the up coming game. After Mondays practice Jay could sense that things weren't right, it never dawned on me that when you're in love with someone they are in tune with your feelings.
"What's wrong?" Jay asked as we were walking out of the locker room.
"Nothing." I replied in a gruff manner.
I had walked a few steps before I realized Jay had stopped walking. I turned around and he was standing there giving me this look of disappointment. As soon as I saw his expression I knew I had made a mistake in not being honest with him about the way I was feeling. Suddenly I just wanted to hold him and tell him everything, but something stopped me and it wasn't the fact that we were standing in the school parking lot. I think the whole reason why I hadn't talked to Jay yet was because then it would be real, as long as I didn't have to say out loud what my feelings were then it didn't exist. I know this doesn't really make sense but I was 16 and didn't know any better.
"We need to talk John." Jay said in a solemn voice.
"I know." I replied.
"We need to talk soon."
I knew of a place down by the river that would give us plenty of privacy. Without even telling Jay I headed the car in the right direction.
"Jay there's so many things I need to tell you." I said
"I know we haven't really talked about any of this."
"It's just I never expected to be in this position."
"What position?" Jay asked.
"To be in love with you." I said
As soon as I told him that I thought he was going to cry, I was so on edge that I didn't know what I would do if he started to cry.
"I." Jay's voice caught in his throat. "I love you."
There it was those three simple words. As soon as he said that to me my heart began to race. Like some drug, those words made me so high. I pulled off along the river to a secluded spot and parked the car.
"Come here." I said turning towards Jay.
I slid my seat back as far as I could and pulled him onto my lap. My lips found his and we kissed, not hungry kisses like before, but soft tender kisses. God that boy could kiss; I have never to this day had a kiss that passionate, that full of love and longing. Without even realizing it I began to grind my hips into Jay's ass, it was like my body had no control where he was concerned.
"John" Jay said breaking our kiss.
"What?"
"We should stop."
"Why?" I asked.
"Because we need to talk, besides this isn't exactly the best place to get that started." He said motioning towards my cock.
"Your right, there are a lot of things we need to discuss." I replied trying not to feel his ass pressing against my hard dick.
"I just wanted you to know that I do love you, more than I ever thought I could." Jay said. "And I also wanted you to know that no matter what you can tell me anything, I wouldn't ever laugh or get mad at you as long as you were honest with me."
As soon as those words left Jay's mouth I felt like a total shit. I had all these doubts about our relationship, and to be honest I was scared, scared of being found out, and scared that I would lose Jay. The one person who would understand, who was probably feeling the same way, didn't have a clue because I was to fucked up to be honest with him. I guess because I had sort of taken control when our relationship began I felt like I didn't want to burden him with my doubts and fears. I thought I had to shoulder all those feelings, in a way I think I was still trying to protect Jay from any harm. But I should have given him more credit, what he may have lacked in physical strength he more than made up for with a mental and emotional fortitude that never ceased to amaze me.
Looking directly into my eyes Jay told me something I will never forget as long as I live.
"John I know how hard this is for you, trust me it isn't easy on me either. There are so many times that I just want to run up to you and hug you and never let go but I cant. I cant tell you how many times I have had to stop my self from touching you when we walk down the hall, all I can say is all the pain and heartache that I go through not being able to show how much I love you is worth it if it means I get to have you sometimes." Jay said with the most passionate look I had ever seen.
"I don't know how I got so lucky to find you Jay, but I swear I'm never letting go. I guess I'm really afraid of losing what we have, I don't know what I would do if I couldn't feel the way I do when I'm with you." Smiling at Jay I couldn't help the tears that were streaming down my face. I don't want you to think less of me but I just couldn't contain all the emotions that were swirling around inside my head. Hell I was worried about what I would do if Jay started crying and here I was squirting tears like some girl. Jay slowly kissed away the tears from my face and I held him for what seemed like hours.
By the time Wednesdays practice rolled around I was feeling like a million bucks, all those nagging feelings of doubt and worry seemed to vanish after Jay and I talked. Even the coach commented on how well I was playing, I knew nothing was going to stop us from wining our first game. Everyone was talking about the parties that would be happening after the game, making plans and generally getting things set up for what was expected to be our first win. I had talked to our assistant coach, Eddy, about getting a hotel room for after the game, I only wanted to celebrate with one person. Now I don't want you to think that we were overly cocky about winning, because we really weren't. It's just we moved, thought and played together so well as a team that we knew deep inside this was going to be a great season. The way my receivers always seemed to be open when I looked for them, or the fact that my line would never fold under anyone's defense were just given facts.
Friday morning I awoke so peacefully and well rested, it was one of those times when you just know it's going to be an awesome day. Getting ready for school I couldn't help but think about the talk Jay and I had, I couldn't wait until after the game. I was going to finally have Jay alone with no interruptions, and I was going to show him exactly how my body felt about him. I couldn't decide if I was going to tell him about the hotel room when I picked him up or if I should make it a total surprise and just take him there after the game. Man I was hard thinking about what I would be doing with him and it was only a short time away.
When I pulled into school my car was swamped with players and cheerleaders, it seemed like we were caught in an impromptu rally. It was all kind of surreal, I can only imagine what Jay was feeling. After we had slipped away from the crowd we quickly went to our lockers. Just before I dropped Jay off at his first class I pulled him into a near by restroom and gave him a deep soulful kiss.
"I needed that to get me through the day." I said.
"Anytime." Jay laughed
"Its going to get really crazy today but don't forget your going to be sitting in the announcer's booth during the game ok." I said.
"Ok how will we meet up after the game?" Jay asked.
"Don't worry I will come and get you."
"Alright I wish I could sit with you guys though, I'm starting to feel like a leaper." Jay complained.
"Hey I know it's rough but you know I wouldn't be able to concentrate on the game if I thought you could get into any trouble." I told him. I guess I didn't blame him though, I would feel the same way if I was always forced to be caged up like that.
"I know I'm sorry, I didn't mean to sound whiney." Jay pouted
"Hey don't sweat it little man, guess what?"
"What?" Jay asked.
"I've got a surprise for you after the game." I said waggling my eyebrows.
"What is it?" Jay asked with some excitement in his voice.
"You'll just have to wait and see little man, but I can say this, your going to love it." I said.
Things couldn't be going any smoother; I just knew this was going to be one of the best days of my life. I was enjoying every minute of it.
By lunch time school was officially a mad house. I don't know what kind of high school you went to but mine went nuts over football. It seemed like everybody, students and teachers included, was struck with the fever. Everyone and anyone would stop me in the halls asking if we were going to win and what I thought of this year's team. It was indescribable, at first I was amazed and even welcomed the attention, but by lunch time I just wanted to get out of there. I needed to get away from this madness and get my head straight. After I explained to Mr. Allison, my lunch period teacher, about what was going on he let me skip class so I could get away from the craziness. I knew there was no way I could go to lunch and not get mobbed, so I went to my locker to ditch my books and then headed to Jay's class to try and talk his teacher into letting him come with me.
Jay had French class during lunch period and his teacher, Ms. Hildebrandt, was the token liberal at our school. You know the kind I'm talking about; she was always wearing strange cloths and jewelry, smelling like patchouli, I guess you could call her a hippy. I walked up to the door and peered through the glass, it looked like they were taking a test so I lightly knocked on the door. Ms. Hildebrandt opened the door and stepped out into the hall.
"Can I help you Mr. Matthews?" She said.
"I was wondering if you could let Jay Williams leave class after he's done taking his test." I asked giving her my best smile.
"What do you want with Jay?"
I was stumped, I never expected to be asked why, I guess I was use to getting my way and hadn't really thought up an excuse to give. I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed, so without really thinking I just blurted out the real reason I wanted Jay.
"I need him." I said not believing that I was saying it out loud.
Looking sharply at me she seemed to be weighing something in her mind.
"I've seen you walking Jay to his classes, and I know what you did for him concerning Billy and Ray but I swear if you hurt him, and you know what I'm talking about, you will have to answer to me do you understand?" She said in a chastising tone.
Without saying anything else she walked back into the class leaving me standing there in a daze. I couldn't believe what she had just said to me, was it that obvious or had Jay talked to her about us. I never told Jay I didn't want him to tell anyone about us, I guess I just assumed he would keep quiet about it; this didn't help my mental situation. I had only been standing there for a few minutes when Jay opened the door and walked into the hall with a look of confusion on his face.
"What's wrong John, why aren't you in class?" Jay asked me.
"I need to get out of here for a little bit everything is just so crazy, let's go we don't have a lot of time before your next class." I told him.
"What do you mean I can't just leave." Jay said
"Its ok Jay I talked to Ms. Hildebrandt."
He looked at me with an incredulous look but I just laughed and grabbed his arm leading him to the parking lot. In just a few minutes we were driving and I was free from that asylum. We went through a drive through and got some lunch, pulling off at a park we ate in silence. Just being with Jay made me feel better; he took my mind off of the game and school. While we ate I kept thinking about what Ms. Hildebrandt had said to me in the hall. I waited until Jay had finished his food before I asked him about it.
"Are you close to Ms. Hildebrandt? I asked him.
"Yes she's my favorite teacher, why?"
"Have you talked to her about you and me?" I asked him.
"Well yes and no, I mean I have talked to her about us but I haven't told her your name." He said to me.
"Well she knows." I said
"How do you know that?" Jay asked
"Because she told me if I hurt you I would have to answer to her." I said with a little smile on my face. It was kind of cute the way she was trying to protect Jay, I couldn't blame her for wanting to keep him safe.
"Oh my god are you serious, I'm so sorry John I never meant for anyone to find out." Jay was almost babbling he was so upset.
"Hey don't worry about it little man; I'm glad you have someone to talk too, besides if she was going to cause us any problems she would have done it by now." I told him.
Looking around the park was deserted so I pulled Jay close to me and we began to kiss. Before I knew it lunch period was almost over, even though we had only been gone for about 40 minutes it was exactly what I needed. Being with Jay always put me in a good mood, and his kisses were enough to get me through the rest of the day.
The last class of the day seemed to drag on forever; I just wanted school to be over. Looking out the window I could see the field from here, its pull was magnetic. I had been running plays in my head when Mrs. Warner asked me to take some papers to the office. It wasn't unusual for my teachers to have me run errands during class. After I dropped them off I was walking back to class when I passed the teachers lounge, seeing the door was open I looked in and spotted Ms. Hildebrandt. She saw me and motioned me to come inside.
"Did you enjoy your lunch?" She asked
"Yes very much thank you, it was just what I needed." I said
"This school does get awfully worked up over football."
"I know, I never thought it would be like this."
"Well I can tell you from experience that it only gets worse." She said.
"What do you mean?" I asked her.
"Well if your as good as they say you are I'm sure we'll win our division, just wait and see what its like when you get to regionals. This place will truly become a mad house then." She warned. Seeing the look of pain that came over my face must have touched her because what she said next took me by surprise.
"I know that you must be under a lot of pressure, so if you ever need anyone to talk to your more than welcome to come to me. Just because your not my student doesn't mean I don't care." She said. Now I could understand why she was Jay's favorite teacher.
Quickly I raced to get my things and meet Jay at his last class; I was excited and anxious to get the game started. There were people everywhere and getting through the halls was near impossible. I was running a few minutes late when I arrived at Jay's class, looking inside the room I saw it was empty. I couldn't understand where he would be. Suddenly I panicked and ran to look for him in the halls. I was frantic with worry, I knew something wasn't right. I had never been late before, I'm sure he would have waited for me. I went to his locker and he wasn't anywhere to be seen.
Roaming the halls I was near tears as I imagined all the possible things he could be going through. Like some kind of freaky psychic premonition I suddenly knew where he was, running as fast as I could I headed to the bathroom closest to his last class. Busting open the door I saw Billy and Ray standing over Jay, they had their pants open and were pissing all over him as he lay on the floor crying. At this point I don't really remember what happened next, then next thing I know I'm sitting in the coach's office. He was calling my name over and over, lightly slapping my face.
"What the hell happened?" I asked. I began to get up when he gently pushed me back into my seat. "Where's Jay?" I asked. I was starting to lose it.
"John listen to me do you know where you're at?" Coach kept asking me.
"Yes I know where I'm at I need to see Jay." I said
"Listen to me you've got about 10 minutes to get your head out of your ass and get into uniform do you understand me the game is about to start."
"What happened?" I asked him I was too confused to think straight.
"I will tell you everything when the game is over, but right now you need to get a move on, listen Jay is ok his parents came and picked him up, right now you need to think about your team." He told me. I knew he was right but I was so worried about Jay I just wanted to know what happened and find out if he was ok.
Rushing to get my gear I was dressed and on the field in less than 10 minutes. Just in time to walk out on the field for the coin toss. We lost the toss which was actually a good thing because it gave me some time to get my mind together. All too soon our defense had forced a turn over, pushing everything from my mind I took the field prepared for battle.
I don't know how I did it but I was able to keep all thoughts of Jay and what had happened out of my mind. Focusing only on the game we managed to end the first half 14 points ahead. Once we were in the locker room I went straight to the coach's office, I didn't want to be around anyone. No one had time to ask any questions before the game and I didn't want to deal with them right now. Coach stuck his head in the door and asked if I was ok, I told him I just needed to be alone until the second half. I kept thinking about what had happened, I could remember walking into the restroom and seeing Jay on the floor in pain and crying. After that things were blurry. For the rest of half time I racked my brain but couldn't remember anything other than that.
We came back in the second half with a vengeance; I used all my pain and anger about what had happened to focus on the game. Unfortunately for the other team I was extremely pissed off, the final score was 42 to 13. As soon as the clock ran down I was running off the field towards my car, I wasn't going to wait around for anyone's explanations. I had to see Jay and find out what happened.
I think I ran every stop sign and I was defiantly speeding all the way there. I pulled up to his house and was walking to his door when a man stepped outside. I had never seen him before but I assumed it was Jay's father.
"Well judging from the football uniform I'd say you must be John." He said extending his hand.
"Yes sir is Jay home, is he ok?" I asked shaking his hand.
"He's up in his room resting from his ordeal. Before you go up and see him we need to have a little talk." He said ushering me around the side of the house to the garage. Opening an antique looking fridge he pulled out a beer.
"Would you like one?" he asked.
"No thank you sir I don't drink." I said.
"Well that's good to know, what I wanted to talk to you about is you and Jay." He said. Now I was starting to get nervous, did everybody know about us?
"There's really no way to say this other than to just say it so here goes." I could tell he was feeling uncomfortable, and then I saw that look, it was the same look that Jay gets when he is nervous or feeling bashful about something. My heart went out to him and I realized no matter what he had to say I couldn't be mad at him. He was too much like Jay for me to get upset.
"Jay told us when he was 12 that he liked boys, and even though it was difficult for his mother and me to adjust we did. We always knew that it would be a hard life for him, and with him being so small we worried even more. Then when he started high school he told us about this really nice and caring guy that he met. I knew he wouldn't be a kid forever but he is are only child, so I'm sure you can understand how concerned we are for him and his well being. When we picked him up at school this afternoon we were shocked and confused. See Jay never told us about those guys, I take it they have been picking on him for a long time now."
Looking off to the distance he was shaking his head., I could tell he was on the edge, I knew exactly how he felt.
"I don't want you to think that were the kind of parents who would stand in the way of any relationship that Jay would have, as long as he isn't suffering from it. Judging from his behavior these last few weeks I can tell you and him must care for each other a great deal. I mean I know you do or else you wouldn't have stuck up for Jay like that. The only thing that I want you to promise me is if anything like this ever happens again you will tell us so we can put a stop to it before any one gets hurt like those boys did. I don't blame you one bit for what happened, but really next time you might not be so lucky. You never know in a fight someone might pull a knife or a gun. Will you promise me?" He asked in such a sincere manner that I couldn't help but smile.
"I promise I will." I said wondering just what had happened to those boys.
"So I guess what I want to say is thank you for being there for him, if you hadn't been there I don't even want to think about what would have happened." He said.
"I'll always be there for him." I said in a low voice. Even though I was anxious to talk to Jay I felt a shared connection with his dad, I was thankful that we seem to get off on the right foot. I shook his hand and then went to see how Jay was doing.
I didn't see his mother as I entered the house, quietly I took off my cleats, I knew my mom would have a fit if I wore them in our house so I thought I should at least be courteous. I slowly walked up the stairs and went to the door that Mr. Williams had told me was Jay's. Opening the door I saw him laying on his bed, I walked in and shut the door behind me, he looked so peaceful. I didn't see any bruises or black eyes so I immediately calmed down a few notches. Watching him sleep so soundly I didn't have the heart to wake him. I slipped my thigh pads out and laid down next to Jay, as soon as my body hit the sheets he scooted over and we spooned together. His body fit with mine like a glove, my head resting just above his. I don't know how long I laid there like that, it could have been a minute or thirty I don't know, I fell asleep with him in my arms. Sometime in the middle of the night Jay awoke with a start, I held him tighter and soothed his fears. My heart was breaking thinking about the pain and cruelty he had suffered from Billy and Ray. The next time I saw them I was going to have to teach them a serious lesson.
I was having the best dream about me and Jay, we were lying on the beach at some resort and Jay was looking at me with sex in his eyes. Without even caring about all the people around us Jay pulled down my shorts and began to suck my dick, god it felt great. He started slow, teasing the head of my cock with his tongue. Suddenly I started to realize that this wasn't just a dream, someone was sucking and licking my dick. I opened my eyes and slowly looked down to find that Jay really was sucking my dick. I didn't say a word, only a low moan escaped my mouth. Watching my cock disappear inside Jay's mouth was the hottest thing I had ever seen. My dick was as hard as it had ever been. Jay's hair was tickling my balls, and his fingers were massaging my thighs.
"Oh my god little man your so hot." I said in a breathless whisper. His eyes looked up and I could feel his love for me in that gaze. I don't know how long he had been sucking my dick but I was getting close fast.
"Mmm you're going to make me cum if you don't stop." I warned him.
If anything Jay increased the pressure and speed. It was the most amazing feeling I had ever experienced. We had never talked about what we liked in bed so I didn't know if he would go through with it all the way.
"Ohhh Jay here it comes." I said in the most stifled voice I could manage.
I know the first shot had to hurt his throat, it felt like I was cumming my balls off. After the first shot he raised his mouth up off my dick but kept it close over the head. Shot after shot erupted from my cock and Jay caught everyone in his mouth. Damn it was the hottest thing I had ever done. A wave of dizziness washed over me and I fell back onto the bed. I was breathing so fast I thought I was going to pass out. A little while later after I caught my breath Jay moved next to me and I turned over and gave him the deepest most passionate kiss we have ever shared. I could taste my cum in his mouth, and even though I had never worked up the nerve to try my own I loved the way it tasted in his mouth.
"Man that was the best thing ever." I told him. "You don't think your parents heard us do you?" I asked.
"I doubt it they went out for breakfast about 15 minutes ago." Jay said with a shit eating grin.
"Just so you know, you can wake me up like that anytime you want too little man." I said with a grin.
I playfully pushed him down on the bed and dove for his cock. I could tell
he needed it bad because he was leaking like a hose. I didn't know if I could swallow the whole thing but I was going to try my hardest to give him the best blow job ever. I started licking his head and the taste of his pre cum was so sweet. Man it was turning me on so much even though I had just cum. I couldn't get enough of his sweetness and I milked his cock for all I could. Jay was moaning and thrashing his head back and forth on the pillow. I opened my mouth as wide as it would go and slid down his big fat dick inch by inch. I closed my eyes and was determined to get it all down my throat. I don't know how long it took but after I had gagged a few times I felt my nose brush against his pubes. I slowly went back up about half way then down again. Jay's leg started to shake and his balls drew up real close to his body.
"Oooh John I'm cumming" Jay said in a high cute voice. Just like him I took the first shot. I could feel his dick expand in my mouth and feel it hit the back of my throat. Pulling off I opened my mouth over his dick and got the rest as it flew out of his cock. I lost count after 6 shots, but I will never forget the taste of his cum. I know this is going to sound odd but some where deep inside a part of me was ecstatic that I now had a piece of Jay inside me.
Slowly his body stopped shaking and his breathing slowed. Pulling him close I kissed him soft and easy. I laid my head on the pillow and he laid his on my chest. My body was tingling and everything felt right with the world.
"I love you little man." I whispered to him squeezing him tight.
"I love you too." Jay whispered back.
I don't know how long we laid there drifting in and out of sleep, but I know I never wanted it to end. I couldn't remember a time in my life when I had felt so whole, so complete. Smelling, feeling and tasting Jay was the best thing I had ever done, ever been apart of, even though I had no concept of time at that moment I knew it couldn't last. Nothing that pure, that special could ever last on earth for long.
With a bolt of realization I remembered that I hadn't told my folks where I would be, and I still didn't have a clue what happened in the school bathroom. Regretting it I sat up and began to look for my uniform. How he had managed to get my cloths off was beyond me, I never did find my jock strap. Jay was laying there with his eyes closed but I knew he wasn't asleep.
"What are you doing John?" Jay asked.
"I have to call my house and let them know I am ok." I said.
"Oh don't worry my dad already spoke to your parents, they called my cell phone last night." He told me.
"Oh did he say if they were pissed off?" I asked him.
"No he didn't say anything."
Suddenly I had a flash of memory, Billy screaming in pain, begging me to stop.
"I need to ask you about what happened in the restroom Jay, the last thing I remember is seeing you on the floor, after that I don't remember a thing, I sort of woke up in the coach's office." I said.
"You mean you don't remember what you did to Billy and Ray." He asked.
"No I don't." I told him. I was actually scared to think what I might have done. This was the second time I had lost control and thinking about the first time I knew anything was possible.
"Wow" Jay said. He was looking at me with worry.
"Well I don't really know how it started but by the time I looked up you had knocked out Ray and was ramming Billy's head into the floor." He told me.
"Someone must have heard the commotion because the next thing I know there was a bunch of teachers in there and they took you away. Then an ambulance came and took Billy and Ray to the hospital."
"They had to go to the hospital?" I asked.
"Yea they looked really messed up." He told me. "Hey don't feel bad about it John, if you hadn't come along when you did..." Jay choked up, his voice cracking. "Well they were telling me that they were going to fuck me up bad."
"Did they hurt you?" I asked him.
"No they just pushed me around and pissed all over me, they told me they were going to give me what I had been wanting, I was never so scared in all my life." Jay said shuddering as he told me about his ordeal. I couldn't help getting angry all over again. If I hadn't figured out where he was, well I knew who would be in the hospital right now instead of Billy and Ray.
Jay was rubbing my back trying to comfort me when he said something I wasn't expecting.
"Can I ask you something John?"
"Sure little man." I said. He cracked a grin and I saw the mischief in his eyes.
"What was the surprise you had for me?" He said with a big grin.
"Well I had one of the assistant coach's get a hotel room for us, I wanted to celebrate our win with only you." I told him. I could tell Jay was disappointed, I was too but I wouldn't have traded the morning we just had for anything.
"Hey don't worry little man there will be plenty of chances for us to be alone." I said.
Even though I was telling Jay not to worry that's exactly what I was doing, I had the feeling that things were going to be a lot different when we got back to school on Monday.
Saturday evening my parents received a call from the principle asking if they could meet with him on Monday. Once they knew I was having a hard time dancing around their questions. I wanted to be honest with them but you know how hard it is to come out to you're parents. I knew they loved me very much, at least I hoped, but still until you actually do it, speak out loud the very words you know will break their hearts, well I'm sure you can understand why I wasn't in any hurry.
"John what is all this about?" My father asked.
I didn't know how to answer him except to just tell him
everything. Dreading the consequences of what I was about to do I asked him if we could speak in his study.
"Dad I have some things that I need to tell you and you're not going to be happy." I warned.
Seeing my father's look of disappointment made me feel like shit, I always wanted to please him and be the perfect son for him. Even though I didn't know it then everything I ever did was to win his approval. I just hoped he would still consider me his son after I explained it all to him.
"Dad I did something I'm not proud of." I began, "Friday before the game I went into a restroom at school and saw two boys hurting Jay. Well once I saw them I sort of lost control." I told him.
"What happened?" my father asked.
"Well honestly I don't know for sure I sort of blacked out once I saw Jay on the floor, I do know that I hurt them pretty bad. They were taken to the hospital." I said.
"John why didn't you tell us when this happened?" he asked.
"Well after I blacked out the next thing I remember was waking up in the coach's office, I only had about ten minutes to get dressed and be on the field before the game. I didn't know then that I had hurt them, I still don't remember exactly what I did." I said hanging my head in shame.
"Why did you lose control? Why didn't you just smack them around a little and leave it at that?" He asked me.
This was the question I was dreading because to answer him with the truth
would require me to explain to him about the way I felt for Jay.
Then without even knowing where it came from I saw Jay in my minds eye, the looks of love he had given me, the tender kisses, all the little things he had ever done to show me how he felt. My heart was filled with pride at having him as my boyfriend, I wasn't going to allow anyone to make me ashamed or feel guilty about what we had. Looking my father straight in the eyes I started with that first day and explained how Jay had stolen my heart. After I had told him everything he sat quietly with a pensive look on his face.
"You do realize that if anyone finds out you can kiss you're chances at a scholarship and the NFL goodbye." He told me.
Even though he wasn't ranting and raving, or kicking me out of the house somehow I was still let down by his statement. His first thoughts weren't about me or how I was feeling, but what I would lose if anyone found out. Don't get me wrong, I was grateful that it was going as well as it was, but still deep inside a little boy just wanted to be told he was loved by his father.
I think that one of the ugliest truths of childhood is the day you realize that no matter what you do, whether you're a super bowl winning athlete or not, you will never have the relationship you want with your parents. Even though my father worked hard to give us the life he never had growing up, which I did respect him for, all I really wanted was to be shown his love and acceptance.
The rest of that weekend was awkward to say the least; I couldn't help but wonder what my parents thought of me now. I was also worried about the meeting we had with the principle on Monday. I didn't think I was going to be in serious trouble, if I was going to be arrested it would have happened by now. Still I knew things were going to be different and that's exactly what I didn't want.
Monday morning dawned and I was anxious to get this meeting over with. It was scheduled for ten o'clock, so my first few classes gave me plenty of time to imagine the worst. I couldn't help but wonder how many people knew about me and Jay. What my father said, while not being sensitive to my feelings, was all too true. If somehow it got out that me and Jay was together then things would never be the same again. Hearing my name called over the intercom was odd, I had never been in trouble before. Walking down the hall towards the principle's office I felt a little like a condemned man walking to his doom.
Sitting in Mr. Johnson's office were my parents, closing the door behind me he said something I wasn't expecting.
"Mr. and Mrs. Mathews I wanted to talk with you about the incident that occurred Friday in a boys restroom between you're son John and several other boys."
"The first thing I wanted to do is apologize; I take the safety of our students very serious and there's no excuse for what happened. All I can say is that we are taking steps to ensure this kind of thing doesn't happen again."
"John I just wanted to say that while I think you went a little too far it was admirable the way you protected another student from this kind of abuse. I wish we had more upstanding students like you." He said.
I was stunned, I mean I knew I received special treatment but this just blew my mind. I sat there while the principle went over some legal papers for my parents to sign saying we weren't going to sue them for not protecting me. I almost laughed it was so absurd, what would they do next give me an award for citizenship? I couldn't help but wonder just how far I could go before they actually punished me.
I ate lunch with Jay as usual; the atmosphere of the lunch room was weird. Instead of the typical low roar of noise it was very subdued. No one stared at us or anything like that but I had the feeling that we were the topic of conversation at every table. I know some of you might think that's kind of a conceited thought to have. But when you're under the glare of the spot light like I was it wasn't out of the ordinary to be at the center of rumors and school gossip. The rest of that day I heard whispers and shushed conversations every where I went. Even though no one treated me any differently I was still paranoid that it was only a matter of time before the shit hit the fan.
With everything seeming to close in around me Jay was the only real happiness for me at that time. All I wanted was to get away from all the pressures that were building and spend time alone with him. It's really odd to think about but even though mentally I was going through a lot of shit my body didn't have any other concerns besides Jay. On the ride home from school that day I couldn't keep my hand from roaming his body. Knowing my touch made him hard gave me a dirty thrill.
"Are you trying to make me cum?" Jay asked. The wet spot on the front of his khaki slacks was proof of the power I had over him and his dick.
"I can't help it; I need you bad little man." I hissed.
Like a burning fire my desire for him was fierce and unforgiving. Without
even knowing it I headed for my house so we could be alone. Racing up the stairs I kept playfully slapping Jay's ass, every time my body came into contact with his it sent little electric jolts of pleasure to my dick. I couldn't wait to see him naked on my bed.
Walking into my room Jay turned and gave me a deep kiss, the kind that makes you forget everything else in the world besides your lips. Frenzy ensued as we fought to tear each other's cloths off. Holding him bare skin to bare skin was exactly what I craved ever since I had left him Saturday. Falling to the bed we kissed and ground our hips together as waves of tingles raced up and down my body.
"Close your eyes." Jay commanded. "You're not the only one who can have a surprise." The innocent and playful manner he displayed was making me fall for him even deeper.
"Ok" I said closing my eyes. "What are you going to do?" I asked.
"Oh don't worry you'll find out soon enough." Jay giggled. I could hear him searching through his cloths and then I heard a snap. I didn't know what he was up to but my cock was missing his touch already.
"Are you ready?" Jay asked.
Suddenly my cock was enveloped by Jay's hand and he was spreading something wet and cold all over its length.
"Now the rule is you can't move until I say so ok?"
I couldn't talk, only grunt my answer, the feelings that his hand was causing in my dick sent me to another place. Without any warning he stopped and climbed on top of me. I don't know why I didn't realize what he was about to do but with my eyes closed and my mind feeling like mush from the hand job I wasn't thinking straight. Slowly he lowered his ass to my dick, I felt the tip touch his hole and I couldn't help myself, looking down I saw as my cock slid into his ass.
"Oh Jay!" I yelled.
The feeling of heat and his gripping hole almost sent me over the
edge. Even though it took every ounce of control I had I didn't move, the look of determination on Jay's face made me realize he would do anything for me. That touched my heart in a way I couldn't have ever guessed.
"Easy little man I don't want you to get hurt." I said. I didn't want to ever take my dick out of his ass but I could never live with myself if I hurt him.
"Its ok it doesn't hurt." He said between clenched teeth.
God I loved this boy so much my heart wanted to burst. Inch by inch he continued to ease my cock inside his ass, before long he was sitting on my lap with the whole thing inside him.
"Now remember don't move until I say its ok." He said with a labored breath.
"Are you sure it doesn't hurt, I don't ever want to hurt you."
"I'm ok baby." He said. Somehow when he said that I knew he wanted this more than I did, so I knew he really wanted it bad.
After he had sat there for a few minutes he began to slowly rock back and forth. Each time going just a little farther so more and more of my dick was going in and out of his ass. I know this might be hard to understand but it felt so good it almost hurt. Faster and faster he moved while moans escaped from his mouth.
"Oh John it feels so good." He cried.
I couldn't take it anymore I had to change positions, there was no way I could handle not being able to pound his ass.
"I've got to move Jay I can't take it anymore." I said as I gently pulled him off my cock. Laying him on my bed I pulled his legs up to my shoulders and prepared to give it all to him.
"Easy." He said with pleading eyes.
"If I hurt you tell me I will stop ok." I told him.
I grabbed my dick and aimed for his hole, pushing the head into him and watching it disappear inside was a sight that just about made me pass out. God I was so hot for him it was like I wanted everything he had to offer, never getting enough to satisfy my desires. Slowly I entered him, once I had it all the way in I stopped and gave him a minute to relax and get use to it. That was the longest minute of my life, every second felt like a lifetime of waiting. Once he started to wiggle his ass I knew he was ready. I pulled almost all the way out and then slid back in. When my balls were touching his ass he gave out a low moan, if it was possible my dick got even harder when I heard him.
I was worried about hurting him so I didn't let myself get carried away. I kept up a steady rhythm; there are no words I can say that will ever describe the way it really felt. Looking into my eyes Jay said something I never expected him too.
"Is that all you got" He said in a challenging tone.
I couldn't believe him; it was like he was another person. Stunned I did the only thing I could and started to pound his ass without mercy. Soon the bed was singing a song as my balls slapping against his ass kept time. Jay promised he would tell me if I hurt him so the whimpering and incoherent sounds coming from him must have meant he was enjoying my talents. Pulling all the way out I would slam it back into his milky white ass hard as I could. Seeing Jay's small pink hole stretched around my pole was incredible.
The look of shock and surprise on Jay's face when I lifted him off the bed and stood up slamming him on my cock, was priceless. He was so light it was nothing for me to keep lifting him up and down over and over. God all the pent up frustration that I used to fuck him was almost scary, not once did he ask me to stop. I don't know how long we fucked it felt like days, but I do remember hearing him scream out as soon as his cock started to shoot.
"Oh John!" Jay screamed when I saw his dick shooting wads of cum.
As soon as he started to cum his ass clamped down on my dick and that was all it took. I bounced him on my dick as hard as I could while I unloaded god knows how much cum inside his ass. I didn't even set him down before I collapsed on the bed. I felt so weak but oh so good.
I felt something wet on my chest, I opened my eyes looking down and saw Jay crying. Suddenly I was more afraid than I had ever been; I would never forgive myself for hurting him.
"Oh I'm so sorry little man, I didn't mean to hurt you." I said as tears threatened to spill from my eyes.
Looking up at me still crying Jay said. "You didn't hurt me, I'm just so happy; I've never felt that before."
Going from feeling like the lowest piece of shit for hurting him to the pride I felt at giving him something no one else ever could was intense. I squeezed him tight against my body never wanting to let go. We laid there with my dick still in his ass for awhile; it didn't go soft until he pulled off me to use the bathroom.
I thought about how much the little guy meant to me, I would die for him, I loved him that much. I can't begin to tell you how special it made me feel when Jay gave me his virginity. I don't know about you but to me that's a gift that should only be shared between true lovers. It seemed like the more we shared of each other the more I wanted him. Watching him getting dressed, something so ordinary, was the most erotic and sensual experience for me. I wondered when it would ever stop getting more intense. Isn't there a limit to how much one person can love another? As long as I live I will never forget that moment.
In the few weeks since our first game I was on top of the world. Things couldn't have been better, we were winning on the field and I had Jay by my side. Once we had shared our bodies and souls to the fullest I was hooked. Jay had taken me to the heights of love and everything else paled in comparison. I couldn't get enough of him to ever satisfy my hunger. Now instead of day dreaming about football plays or which pro team I would get drafted too I could only think of Jay. It's kind of funny to think about, before I met him I never really thought about being with someone. I mean sure I had thought about having sex with the cute guys I had seen but never had the idea of actually being with one person and being in love enter my mind. There were times when I could spend just a few moments looking into his eyes and it felt like a lifetime. And then we could be together for hours on end and it would only feel like a few minutes had passed. Weird huh, the way love can fuck with your head.
Our homecoming game was approaching fast and I was looking forward to the parties and celebrations that were sure to ensue. This year we were to host our long time bitter rivals East Central; they had beaten our school for the last five years. All the talk leading up to the game was about how we were going to whip their asses this year. I had gotten use to the football hysteria and while it was still a little unnerving it didn't cause me to freak out like it had that first time.
Since we were undefeated so far in the season with each game the pressure
was mounting. I sort of felt like there was this bomb just waiting to drop, I didn't know if it was because of my relationship with Jay or because of the pressure to win. If you have ever played for an undefeated team then you know what I'm talking about. It's like knowing any minute the sky can fall and even though you try your hardest there's nothing you can do.
The week before homecoming started off with a sobering reality. Walking into the school that morning I saw that Billy and Ray had returned to school. Billy had his jaw wired shut and was wearing a head brace, Ray had a broken arm and the fading mask of raccoon eyes. I was shocked, I didn't feel sorry for them but I couldn't help wincing when I saw how much damage I had caused. As soon as they spotted Jay and me walking down the hall they turned and went in the other direction.
Jay had noticed them watching us and I couldn't help but feel his body react. Even without touching him I knew he was shaking a little and I could almost feel his heart rate increase. I placed my arm around his shoulder and gave him a squeeze; this was all he needed to relax again. Once we had taken care of the usual locker routine and I dropped him off at class I went in search of Billy and Ray.
I wasn't planning on hurting them again I just wanted to settle things once and for all. I didn't want to spend the next four years of school looking over my shoulder to keep me and Jay safe. And to be honest I was feeling a little bit guilty about hurting them, not that I didn't feel I had a right to defend my boyfriend but I knew I had gone too far.
I caught up to them just out side of the cafeteria and even though I hated their guts I was trying to be nice so we could settle this.
"Hey guys can I talk to you for a second?" I asked.
"You better stay away from us!" Ray shouted with a look of terror in his eyes.
"Dude I'm not going to hurt you." I said.
"You better back off before something bad happens." Billy said in a slow and methodical drawl. Speaking through wire isn't all that conducive to conversation.
"Look all I want to say is if you guys leave Jay alone there won't be any problems ok." I said.
"Do it Billy." Ray said in a whiny voice.
I didn't understand what he meant, about that time Billy pulled his shirt up a little and I saw what I thought was the handle of a gun. Instead of being afraid like any normal person it really pissed me off when I saw the gun.
"You know I was going to apologize for hurting you guys so bad. I never meant to put you in the hospital. I must have really fucked your brain up if you're stupid enough to bring a gun to settle your fights." I said with hatred.
"I'm not going to tell you again." Billy said as a few beads of sweat began to form on his brow.
"Go ahead Billy, if you think your man enough to do it." I taunted him, as I've said before I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed. I was just so mad that he would do something like this. Didn't he know he was throwing his life away?
"Do it Billy take his faggot ass out." Goaded Ray.
I could see the fear and uncertainty